THE STRANGER YOU KNEW

I'll always be the stranger you knew

2010-08-02T20:01:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna go find somewhere else to hide myself now. I'll miss this space?

Good luck finding the rest of me.

"Omg syaf you looked like a girl when you did that"

2010-07-25T10:36:00.001+08:00

1. It's Sunday.(suxxxxxx)
2. My studying hours officially starts at 11 00. Ends at 3?
3. My toddler second cousin is having a birthday party later. Theme: Arabian Nights.
4. I woke up with this terrible soar throat and I almost swallowed my uvula.
5. Why must such unfortunate event happen at this point of time, where my health is really... crucial.
6. Exams are fucking here. My "study sessions" haven't been productive at all.
7. But I'm confident for A Math I think? Tuition rocks.
8. Yeah that's the only thing I'm okay at.
9. SJI boys are just full of themselves.
10. TKG should've been in the finals god damn.
11. I'm talking about bahas by the way.
12. Friday was cross-country.
13. Was epic. Really.
14. Wished Filzah and Ayesha didn't pon!! Kentals.
15. Food Culture is still (Y). And malay.
16. Honestly think my memory is failing.
17. My dad bought this alarm device thing and it will ring if it detects any movement or difference in light intensity(haha) SOMETHING LIKE THE ONE I USED TO HAVE OMG.
18. Today is someone's birthday.
19. Oh actually three people's.
20. I still haven't watched Inception.
21. I don't need to be hooked up by anyone.
22. Okay 'hook up' has a wide range of meanings. But I think you know what I mean.
23. I don't think anyone reads my blog anymore. But it's okay.
24. I can't wait for Ramadan(as in the month, not the person).
25. I go for facials fuckyeah.

Start over

2010-07-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

A girl misses her train to Milan and is set to wait overnight in Rome until dawn. However, a chance encounter with a guy changes her plans and the night lights of the capital turn into the background to a tender love story. An extraordinary chemistry made of knowing glances and small gestures fills the few instants that separate them both from the sunrise.

Do you think we'll make it?

2010-07-17T23:08:00.002+08:00

This week kinda made me hate being a senior. There's just so much to think, to say, to do. And all you get is a bunch of kids, who happen to be one or two years younger, staring at you, unmotivated, uninspired.

I think I have a love-hate relationship with prefects. Prefects' Investiture yesterday was surprisingly good. The speech by the Guest Of Honour was so damn inspirational I swear. Sometimes I wished I was a prefect. Sometimes. Usually not. Only sometimes. I think I want to go to a JC. Because I keep getting visions(lol?) of myself being in one. Being in Student Council seems so much fun. But who am I kidding. I want a little more freedom too. Ah we'll see.

Anyway, my mum's not cranky. I love this. This morning she was unusually nice(I mean like, after a long time) and concerned and not irritating. Why can't you be like this everyday Mother?

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I miss going to the library. I'm gonna be a good girl tomorrow. And for rest of the weeks to come.

I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand

2010-07-12T20:48:00.001+08:00

Scares me how a song could do so much. (Ya I'm still in love with this song)

Won't you come and stop me

2010-07-11T23:53:00.001+08:00

So tonight, I won't be sleeping. Because it's the finals of the World Cup. (You can't miss the FINALS.) And because I haven't started on my homework. At all. Life's been quite unproductive these days. I don't like.

But yesterday was... quite okay. I went to watch the prelims of the bahas competition at Mayflower Sec. And as usual, I was very out of place, being the only TKG supporter after Atsirah left. "Eh, I feel so extra.""Syaf, you're always extra." Thanks uh Hannan. I was shocked to the max when VS didn't get through. Some of the schools who got through didn't deserve to. Sigh. I totally don't understand the judges man. Srsly. I hope Hadi and Faris and the other Hadi and the other two take it well. :/

Before Cikgu left, she gave me a look. The look. Cos I was hanging out with the boys a lot. Please don't give me that nagging tomorrow pleaseeeeee.

Other than that, my social life is doing well. HAHAHA. I actually made friends with some Cedar girls. That is so unusual of me.

My mum's sick. Not only that, she is sick AND cranky. I hate this. My gut tells me it's going to be worse when Sis leaves Singapore next week. I think my mother hates me more than ever.

Really fucked up

2010-07-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

Ok I feel a little lost now. But no kind of map could help me either.

"Puck, you will always be a LIMA loser!"

2010-07-05T14:07:00.000+08:00

Hi blog I'm sorry I think I might have to neglect you since I'm getting busier and busier and lazier and lazier.

But anyhoo.

Today's Limelight concert!! Yay!! And I actually went out shopping for the last two days to shop for my dress. I finally got it yesterday. Yay so I'm not a dress virgin anymore, my friends. Everyone's gonna be there and I can't wait to see them!! Even the guys! Who I think only agreed to go because I'm paying for their tickets.

First week of school was probably not that painful as I'd expected. I did some reflection(chey), and all I wanna do right now is to do well. Make my family happy. It's not gonna be all fun and exciting, but I wanna do this for myself too. I want to make my life worth living, so I want to start early. I don't want to be a "lima loser". Or in this case, lims loser(Lost In the Middle of Singapore).

MT Oral tomorrow! Wish me luck~

2010-06-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

I'm just gonna pretend I don't know any shit about holiday homework. Okay? Okay.

NP is like my life...? But I like it.

2010-06-25T18:03:00.001+08:00

Me misses STC a lot.

Sure, my group didn't bond as well as the other groups, but we had fun, didn't we? That "helium" game was frustrating like hell. But I'm glad we played it and we worked together as a team. Honestly campfire could've been better, but I had so much fun singing and dancing and being hyper with Darren and Lee Jiang at the back! And the Ropes Course, wow I never knew balance was so important. Omg Water Confidence Jump! I wasn't actually scared to jump, but more of the after-jump. Girl stuff, ya know? Hahaha "The sea will become the Red Sea." Gross. I loved Area Cleaning!!! I like it when the guys don't treat me like a girl. They treat me like I'm one of them. It's so cool how many friends I made during Area Cleaning.

I don't know why, but it just feels so good to be around people whom you share interests with, and even if it's just slacking and lame jokes, you enjoy having friends like them.

I just wished everyone stopped hanging around with their unit mates as much? And it didn't rain so much? It was raining like damn heavily and a lot of us didn't manage to do the Land Expedition. Actually we were there for less than 48 hours, so I guess we can't expect too much out of that period of time. Nevertheless, I enjoyed my 5th(or was it 6th?) trip at Ubin.

P.S After I showered when I got home, I stalked everybody. Like... seriously everyone.

P.P.S There were two very cute/hot guys in my group. SPAZZZZZZ

Got it all wrong

2010-06-21T01:01:00.003+08:00

Drained.

2010-06-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

I hate this feeling that I'm having. It's this thing where you feel like the world's going to shut you, close down onto you and no one actually feels for you. Worse, someone out there is going to come and get you. Perhaps kill you. Because this person hates you so much that you don't deserve a place in the world.

I need a this-is-where-you-can-really-rant-and-bitch box or some THING, somewhere where I can express my shitty life (full of some shitty people). Because this place is probably too... public.

This is why I hate Taylor Swift (sorry)

2010-06-17T14:33:00.001+08:00

I was doing my routine bloghopping last night, and I came across this tumblr. Ok duh. It belonged to a friend of a friend, and it just so happened she just got into a relationship...with another friend of mine. Small world.

Ya anyway, she is head over heels in love with him. And I've got to say, I'm somewhat thankful that I'm not in a relationship. Especially at my age. No, it's not that I have that commitment issue(ok maybe a little bit still), but it's because I could possibly lose track of my life and I might lose some friends here and there. I'm not saying that I would, but it could happen. When you're so blinded by "love".

What annoys me actually is that she is just so... full of herself. I can't stand people who are so full of their selves. Like, quoting "sweet" messages from her boyfriend? Talking about their future? Please, you haven't even been together for the shortest time. I know I sound like one jealous bitch, but trust me I'm not. I just can't stand it when girls put themselves out there, doing whatever it takes to impress a guy, hoping that she'd be his princess(like wtf ewww), wishing that their love story would be that cliche high school love.

Okay enough ranting. Bye.

Ohhhhhh Africa!

2010-06-11T21:52:00.000+08:00

Omg so my parents subscribed to Mio TV again, after unsubscribing a few months ago. I suspect the only reason for this is to watch the World Cup. But that's weird, because the only person who actually follows and watches soccer is my brother. And even so, I wouldn't really consider him that fanatic. Okay maybe right now... Currently he is shouting and clapping (into my ear, sadly) just as the football channel is on the screen. My dad is on the couch and I can proudly say that he is very "macam paham" when it comes to football. Seriously.

But anyway! I got to watch 3 free episodes of Glee! Yayyyyyy. I think I have a crush on Finn. :D

Maybe I won't die alone

2010-06-10T20:28:00.002+08:00

Leaders Oi

2010-06-07T22:03:00.001+08:00

I am this close to creating a Formspring account. But I don't know if I should. It's almost like committing suicide... online. Should I should I should I?

Today 3/1 and 3/4 had Chemistry class. I liked today's class. Very fun, productive at the same time. Mr Ahmad called me Chicken Little because I had a fauxhawk. I like sitting with Cheryl and Rena and Fewsah. I had fun. Just sitting with them. Seriously.

After Chem was Floorball! First training ever. Okay I wouldn't exactly call it training because we don't have a full proper team yet. But I hope we do soon. Get some juniors here and there... I think we can do it. Perspired like pig. I like "irritating people", also known as tackling. Hahaha. And shooting too! Ah I hope Marissa Tang will be more inspired to come and train/teach us. I think she thinks that our numbers are pathetic. Well, yeah. But there is still hope!

Now that I've finally rested from after-OBS sickness, I think I might blog about it.

I must say, this one wasn't as great as the previous one in January. But I guess it still plays a big part in my life. I got so much better at rock-climbing omg!!!! I am so freaking proud of myself you have no idea. Yeah, this Leadership camp was more of like redeeming myself, you know. I think I took charge quite a lot. Planning a day's activities for 45 people isn't that easy eh. But it was worth the try :D I just have to smile...and chillax a bit. That's what my groupmates said. Hahaha. Roland made a lot of people including me cry, again. Haiz.

ENG SOON, BEE HOON, YOU GOT ISSUE, I GOT TISSUE. (k inside joke bye)

Just Crush

2010-06-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

Holy shit this is awesome. I wanna do this sometime.

Anyway I'm back. But not so alive.

FIVE DAYS FIVE DAYS FIVE DAYS FIVE DAYS FIVE DAYS.

2010-05-30T22:25:00.001+08:00

I hope these five days will be the quickest, least excrutiating days of my life. Wish me luck.

Anyway I have short hair. Really short hair.

2010-05-30T00:17:00.001+08:00

Yay.

It's so out of line to try and turn back time

2010-05-28T20:36:00.005+08:00

So it's the holidays!! Wait, not so much for me.

I'll be going for OBS (ya, again) in 3 days. Which reminds me! I haven't packed a single thing. So lech can. Argh thanks to OBS and some other expensive shit, my Edusave account has like 50 bucks left? Yeah. Some of my friends have what, a thousand?? Haiz.

I'm planning to be really productive this time. 4 weeks. Put to good use. Today wasn't a bad start, I woke up at nine in the morning, showered and had prata for breakfast with the parents downstairs. And then it was time for spring cleaning! Bleargh. But I managed to get my room quite neat, I must say. Doesn't smell as bad hehehe. Oh crap I forgot the part where I took a 45-minute nap. But it was crucial, so yeah. :P

I've been on the laptop since 5. I had nothing much to do. Plus I'm waiting for somebody. Okay nvm it's a secret. Sheesh, it's not like my parents read my blog anyway. But yeah anyway it's a surprise for them. Let's just hope no one gets a heart attack.

On Wednesday, after I salam-ed Cikgu, she hesitated for a while before calling my name. Then she said that she didn't know if she was in the position to say it, but she said it anyway. So... she said that, in Islam it's makruh to have something short on one side, while long on the other. What else could she be referring to, right? Me hair of course. So to make the long story short, I'm going to have to cut my hair. Not that I want to, but. I don't know. Yeah I don't know. We'll see what I'm gonna do.

And I also found out that eyebrow piercing is not allowed!! Haram. So saddddd. Actually piercing at places other than the ears are not allowed too. BOO.

Went out with TCG yesterday! It was fun while it lasted. I miss everyone already. I don't know why, but when we played "I ever" and "I have never", the mood became so serious and so solemn. Which is very weird, I think. Cos I would've expected it to be funny and happy. Maybe it was just everyone. I dunno.

B-)

2010-05-28T17:19:00.001+08:00

OMG OMG OMG I AM SO HAPPY.

I just finally freaking fixed the sound echo problem on the laptop. Yeah I'm so happy!!!! And n00b.

PS: My tagboard was so dead that it got spammed ------>

So tell me

2010-05-24T21:26:00.002+08:00

So apparently my hair is a hot topic among teachers...

Interesting.

(hehehehehe I rock)

I think I'm gonna buy a lifetime's worth of ~~illegal~~ chewing gum. These cheeks need to exercise a 'lil bit.

Anyway, get well soon, everybody! Weather's still being a bitch huh. I'm sorry if I'd spread the virus to you though. :(

2010-05-18T19:35:00.002+08:00

E.X.P.E.C.T.A.T.I.O.N.S

2010-05-18T19:22:00.001+08:00

Fuck. I'm so fucked. I'm so dead.

I'm so not looking forward to a probable hour of lecture about how lazy, stupid, callous person I am. Come on. It's not like I don't already know.

It's okay, I'm gonna start doing some brainwashing to myself. I really hope it works. It's gotta work, right? Third time's the charm, no?

2010-05-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

When you think all is well, and life is going just fine

reality hits you. It hits you real hard.

Innocence is brilliant

2010-05-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

So today was E-learning. That's good because I get an extra hour's sleep. That's no good because I am stuck at home doing shitass assignments.

On a more serious note, I just found out that the girl who got slapped and slammed in the HDB lift by her schoolmate is a former schoolmate of mine. Haiz. I got really angry for like an hour because of that. It's not just cos I know her that I feel this way. But really, I am sick and tired of hearing women and girls being victims of such violence. I just wished that she had fought back, somehow. She could have gotten herself into a worse predicament, but sigh. Stand up for yourself, girl.

So what's becoming of the Malay society? Think before you act. Think.

I can't wait for the holidays. Holidays... which are slowly becoming non-existent. Did I tell you I'm going OBS? Yeah, again. There's STC which I'm looking forward to! Also 2 days of some course thing that we have. Nyeh I'm probably gonna get called back for extra classes too.

Script-checking tomorrow. Allz ze bez to mez.

This is my life. This, is my life.

Safikah

2010-05-10T20:25:00.001+08:00

Today we saw a cat and it was one of the cutest and prettiest I've seen in Singapore. It had a kitten, which was just as adorable. I want one. Or three. The sight of them made my day.

Friends, I'm sorry if I crack the lamest jokes, have the most emotive face on earth, make up really stupid accents of Filipino, Hongkong, Chinese, Indian, Malaysian, (combined?)and... the list goes on. But I really feel happy when I see you guys laugh. With me, of course.

Do you need a demonstration?

2010-05-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

Past two days have been quite great. Not exactly productive... but what have we to produce anyway? I like Marina Barrage because of its structure. Other than that, it's just quite boring I think. Workers there like to stare. And overpriced food and drinks much! Would you seriously pay 2 bucks for a can drink? I...don't think so.

The Changi Airport, on the other hand, is much more interesting. I don't mind being homeless if I get to stay there. Seriously. All I need are two of my best friends, a laptop(or two), definitely a power plug, and some strangers to annoy. My life could be just complete.

I am sane.

2010-05-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

Fuck it's May already. Mei.

What have I been doing...

Tripp

2010-05-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

And here comes the flu.

I don't think I look like me anymore. It's scary.

Miscalculations

2010-05-01T01:51:00.001+08:00

My friday was like soooo great, until a few people had to go ruin it. No wait, make that 13 people(I may have left out some haha). After all that shit I had to go through. Sigh, because life's unfair like that. But hey, at least the exams are over.

Iron Man 2 was like da bomb. Like seriously. Take my word for it.

I feel like I need to hug my brother. Right now he's the only guy I can stand.

2010-04-29T20:03:00.002+08:00

I don't think I can love anyone who doesn't love them. Okay that's really screwed.

The Vacuum

2010-04-24T07:53:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for midyears to end. That's going to come in exactly seven days. And the friday would be (inserts steam face). A Math paper ends at about 10 30. Coincidentally, it's the father's birthday. Okay, MY father's. I don't know why I have this habit of calling people as 'The (something)'. But I don't have a problem with it so it doesn't matter. Okay wtf stop talking to yourself, Fiqo. Okay anyway where was I. Ah yes. I was thinking of bringing the father to the cinemas. And watch freaking IronMan 2!!!! Omgah how exciting! Okay I lied, it was the brother's idea. And he asked me to book tickets. Because he claims he doesn't know how. I bet he's just lazy. Who cares, he's paying. But then again, I'm the internet geek(freak and stalker also applies), after the sister. So I will do everyone a favour! If only the sister was here...

Speaking of birthdays, I owe a few people some birthday presents. Sigh. This is real typical of me. But you can't blame me. Because I'm just not really a birthday person. Like, okay... you're a year older, happy birthday! And then hug, maybe a kiss too. And then...? Done. What comes next? But of course if you are really significant in my life, then I'd probably try to get something for you. Make it if I could. Or I could treat you to lunch? Free food, who doesn't want that? ;D

Moving on... I have to clean this stuffy, disgusting, mismatched room before anyone else dies from the sight of it. (The sister is so gonna kill me if she knows this.) Just so everyone knows, there are pros and cons to having your own(sort of) room. You have to keep everything clean, make sure it smells nice or at least organize your stuff. Otherwise it will end up like mine. Kandang babi much.

The Small One

2010-04-23T21:46:00.003+08:00

I am using the new laptop. Its length is not longer than my Superman pencil box, its breadth about the length of my palm. It is almost the cutest thing I've ever seen(cats are still first). But I'm going to be honest. I have difficulty... even typing. Like, come on. The keypads are like frickin' 1 cm³. It is so difficult, I swear. Freaking smaller than my head!! But don't worry, I will use you and make you feel loved, Si Kecil. Yeah, I even named it.

Eh engkau pe salllllll

2010-04-22T19:38:00.005+08:00

No, I will not fucking cut the other side of my hair, because I have an *cough* interesting sense of style, unlike you. I didn't know you could be so bitchy. Don't make me get a pair of scissors and cut yours instead!!!

Anyhoo.

I mishhhhhhhh me sister :(

That was 2007.
2007 was 3 years ago. Right? Omg.

2010-04-18T23:26:00.004+08:00

Sorry I just had to put this too. Sweeeeeeeeet.

Exactly

2010-04-18T14:02:00.001+08:00

2010-04-18T14:01:00.000+08:00

My life, really

2010-04-15T21:27:00.003+08:00

Today was... really nice.

I just wanna say I love my friends so much. Yes, I really do. I know sometimes I seem like I don't appreciate them at all, but honestly, they mean the world to me. HUGGGGGG

And yes! I cut my hair. But no, it doesn't look like those pictures I put up. But, somewhere close. I like it. Apparently it calls for some super lame jokes.

Reason why I haven't been blogging, stalking and what not, is cos I've been studying! Tuition has been pretty productive :D yaaay. Mid-years start next week and I am scared but I will go... and do my thang. Hahahaha.

Okay damn my brother just made me fucking pissed. But whatever... (I swear this post has no purpose)

Ooh last friday my squad planned our first parade! Hmmm, it could've been better. Nonetheless, we did good for our first time. So this week's our second week, we're still assuming roles because we haven't got our posts yet. I hope mine will interesting and something I'll enjoy doing.

Oh yaaaa just now Ayesha and I went around the school looking for at least one of the Teacher Officers to sign the parade plan. After God knows how long, we found Mr Ahmad. He signed it and asked for the proposal. I gave it to him. He looked impressed. FUCK YEAHHHHH.

Perfecto

2010-04-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

Everybody anybody somebody nobody

2010-04-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

I swear I'm gonna keep a very special notebook. In it will be a list of all the funniest, craziest, (horniest... maybe), stupidest things I've said, anything that is likely to be coming out of this mouth. And I will keep it until........

forever.

stripped to the bone

2010-04-05T21:37:00.002+08:00

This would be the moment where I would give up. Give up on you, give up on me, give up on everything. I can’t keep up with my own life, can’t stay true to myself, can’t… breathe. Sometimes I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough for anybody, not even me. Eccentric I may be, ambivalent I sure am. I hardly know where I’m going. I am a messed up, ragged doll who doesn’t want to be looking too far for her happiness yet would do anything to be happy. A doll who has learnt to accept that she has commitment and trust issues, and would do everything to overcome them. Should I fail, I want to lie on my back watching adorable clouds and be thinking “I do not regret any of this.” And as I sit here presently, watching myself drown in deep, intense waters, my heart is wishing that my eyes are seeing a reflection of you not far down, waiting for me.

2010-03-31T22:07:00.006+08:00

So, which one?

OMGAH SOMEONE STOP ME BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.

I'd never sing of love, if it does not exist

2010-03-31T21:12:00.002+08:00

Life's been good. Or so I think. I can still handle it. :D

I feel like such a noob... I had my first tuition lesson yesterday. And it was... not bad! Considering the fact that I didn't know what to expect. But both Mr and Mrs Siow/Seow are really funny and dedicated teachers, which is really important, so yay them. And yay me. I guess I'm looking forward to the next few sessions. I just need some of the other students there to be as sociable as me! Hahaha. I swear they look so exhausted and sad and depressed and all that negativity is so bleargh. Sometimes I wish I could have tuition everyday(that is, if my ability to do math is improving) but that would make my mother bankcrupt.

Mid-years are in about two weeks! That is very disturbing, isn't it. And none of us need a certain something or someone bringing us down just like that. Cheer up, guys. It's not the end of the world. You will pull through.

Yeah, what's going on between you and me, huh? ;D

2010-03-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

I think I've come to a point where I'm tired of lowering my expectations. My hopes. My ambitions. Because it doesn't do any good. It doesn't make me a better person. I think I'm going to leave them exactly where they are, and I'm gonna work my own way up.

Only when I sleep

2010-03-23T19:57:00.003+08:00

I wish I could be brutally honest to people. Like, be totally blunt with them. Say whatever that's going through my mind. I really do. But thing is, I know I'm not like that. In fact, I think I'm polite. Sigh. I just want to stop pretending to be something/someone I'm not. I want to be genuine, sincere and real. Because I like myself when I am so.

I don't feel like I have any direction anymore. Oh my god, what am I saying! But really. I don't know what I want. And I know I'm not bored. Because bored people will find something to do. I, on the other hand, don't want to do anything.

I'm torn. I'm confused. Maybe I want something. Or someone. I just don't know it yet.

Okay this is such a redundant post. Oh wait, no.

Happy birthday, Kak. I love you and am praying for you. I don't know what it feels like there, for obvious reasons, but I want you to hang in there. You are like one of the strongest people I know. So perceptive, I wish I had half of your intelligence. I'm finally missing you, so much that it hurts. Don't do this for us, do this for yourself. I love you.

PS: Exactly 365 days ago, we were at Coldplay. :-)

Girls just wanna have fun

2010-03-23T17:37:00.006+08:00

Tell me you guys laughed.

Victory Is Sweet (Even Though It's Third)

2010-03-21T14:14:00.005+08:00

March 20, 2010
The day Powerberries brought glory to TKNP

You'll be in my heart for a long time.

Music we make from our lips

2010-03-13T14:40:00.003+08:00

2010-03-12T22:09:00.001+08:00

"Maybe I’m sad about wanting you. I’m not too comfortable with wanting someone. "

Craig Thompson, Blankets

Mmhmm goooood

2010-03-12T21:20:00.002+08:00

This is probably kinda late.

Paramore was like fucking good. Yes. One of the best nights of my life. I want Sunday all over again. Hayley you're right, headbanging is crucial.

On another note, this week has taught me a lesson or two. Think before you speak.

I Settle Down, A twisted up frown

2010-03-07T12:37:00.005+08:00

I hope you come with red though. You don't know how much I love it.

Looking up

2010-03-07T00:13:00.002+08:00

I feel like I just made one of the most difficult phone calls in my life. But I hope it was worthwhile. I know it's quite unfair that I write this down here, but I just need to write it now.

I am still thinking about it even though it's been around an hour or so. And I will probably be thinking about it tomorrow. Maybe because my life's not 100% okay, maybe because we are not 100% okay. Yet.

I thought I was done with tears... but I guess I wasn't. But my tears were falling for the right reasons. I may not be the greatest friend on earth. But I need to you to know that I am trying. Not because I have to, but because I want to. I sincerely want to.

You mean a lot to me, more than you think. And I'm okay if I don't mean as much.

Maybe I do judge you sometimes, but that's just an opinion, just how I look at things. And we can always agree to disagree. And yes, I admit I am insensitive. And that I'd do myself a big favour if I'm less up-front. Because we are all human and we all have feelings.

And now I'm feeling hopeful.

Sense

2010-03-03T20:57:00.003+08:00

Right now I would just like a hug from someone who seriously, truly cares. Any takers? :(

2010-03-01T20:49:00.002+08:00

Would someone care to classify, Our broken hearts and twisted minds

Don't mess with Dynamite

2010-02-28T11:45:00.006+08:00

Hi.

I just wanna say that this week has been the most fucked up week yet I feel like I just conquered that shit the best way I could. So I think that made up for it.

After our last paper on Friday I was so happy I sent out SMSes to everyone. Heeeeheee. I don't know if I'm going to do well... (Gosh, A Math was just pure crap. :/) But I will not lose hope.

Yesterday was the Campcraft Prelims!!! I haven't blogged about campcraft in a while, well actually I'm not really supposed to, but who gives a fuck. Most people will go "Wtf is campcraft??" Haha you know when you see a group of NP girls at the pitch making a hell lot of noise pitching up tents and the flagpole and this structure thing we call the gadget, yeah that is campcraft. :}

So I was like fucking nervous, my hands were shaking, I felt like puking, I wanted to cry. I was getting ready for the horn blast, at my running position. And when it came, I sprinted my ass off, despite the fact that I was at the wrong end of the pitch. OMG IT WAS FUCKING SCARY OMG , THE MOST NERVE-RACKING THING. I was screaming for my life!!! The time-check, the encouragement, everything. God knows why not everyone heard me "Tk Sedia" hahahaha it was funny when all the supporters re-enacted all the scenes. We did good. I mean, I honestly think we did great. And that we ought to be in the finals. But whatever happens, I know we've put in 110%. Omg I love you, Powerberries!!!(Yes, that's our team name)

Sigh. I need to go out. I feel so guilty when people like Filzah ask me if I have training, which I do and I can't go out. Now that prelims are over, I could do with a bit of fun, I swear I'm going out everyday this week.

Oh yeaaaaah, Paramore is exactly in a week's time. Oh my god!!!

To every joke no one else can understand

2010-02-21T18:25:00.005+08:00

Okay so Syahirah Salim a.k.a. my sister just left for Kuala Lumpur for a two-year long study this afternoon. Okay yeah she'll come back once in a while, but it's not the same! Yeah I didn't cry my eyeballs out, but I am so SAD. That's all. Really, really sad T.T Please take care of yourself and make some malaysian friends and go be top student(again) or something, but don't bring back a mat malaysia home please. I love you.

BECAUSE CAN!

2010-02-18T22:25:00.004+08:00

I think I just had a pretty good day. Yes, a pretty great day. I told 3E4 our class motto should be 'Because can!', but they didn't take my word for it. Disappointed, but 'sokay at least our class cheer/song's epic.

I can't believe a lot of people have been talking about it. Noooo it's not true kay(for now, at least ;D). Like seriously, rumours? About me? Like wtf since when do people talk about me!

And Riny. Youz iz hornyz. And you are straight! Just confused. Hahahaha.

Because I do not like

2010-02-15T01:13:00.003+08:00

I do not like being in a crowded room full of people and yet feel so alone. I do not like how the rain does not fall for hours and how the sound of it does not play in my ears. I do not like being known as the lazy one because I am always thinking. I do not like it when people try so hard to be different, when in fact, we are all the same. I do not like it when they leave me just as when I am trying to find them. I do not like that I am afraid of commitment. I do not like that I let myself be so demurring about something. I do not like how hugs can be so insincere and feigned. I do not like how Facebook is so addictive. I do not like people who say things they do not mean. I do not like how my eyelashes touch my glasses as I blink. I do not like those times when all I feel like doing is shaving my head. I do not like how love is so fickle-minded. I do not like how God has written my fate, even before everything happens. But I will try to understand him.

Ayeshaaaaaaaaaa

2010-02-15T00:26:00.004+08:00

Hi Ayesha. Thank you so much for making my day. I want to tell the whole bloody ass world how significant you are to me, but they never understand, do they? But of course, you can. You're so much better with words ;D I love you bb!

You'll always be my baby

2010-02-13T23:29:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's, guys!
Love you!

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

2010-02-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

I AM NOT WEAK I AM NOT WEAK I AM NOT WEAK I AM NOT WEAK I AM NOT WEAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

I can’t please every single one of you. So if I didn’t this past week, well too bad, ‘cause I’m not going to feel sorry.

Oh. I think I know what I want to be when I grow up. :)

2010-02-13T13:28:00.001+08:00

Fan girl

2010-02-08T21:56:00.002+08:00

And here I am, thinking about when I'm ever going to get to sing my heart out to you. I'd like that, you know.

If you love me, Won't you let me know?

2010-02-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

HI YOU ALL!

My week has been busy! Busy-great, I guess. Thanks to you guys who made my days this past week. I feel like giving you all a long, niceeeee hug. You guys know who you are.

So today I woke up super early to send my parents and Sis to the airport. They're going to KL to settle some stuff for Sis before she goes there to study for the next three years. She's leaving in like 2 weeks omg! I'm gonna be so sad and lonely laaaaaaa. :( Oh yeah that means I need to get a webcam, since she's taking the laptop with her. I'm gonna miss you, Kak.

In the afternoon, went out with Muhammad Nurhadi! Okay I dunno why I said your name like that but yeah I did. You know, I didn't know I'm such a horrible study partner. Sorry Hadi, I'm like probably the worst person you should go study with because... I'll end up not studying. But I could be the best person to slack with! Right right right! :D :D :D

I just had like the messiest dinner since forever. I had crab for dinner! So cool. Oh yeah I'm actually at my grandma's right now. They got the internet fixed! Yay to that.

I can't believe I'm excited for school tomorrow. Obviously not because I like to study, but I miss everyone so much. It's mad. I just saw them like 2 days ago... But I love my friends, and that's what matters most!

Okay and this has been such a gay post. Not forgetting the number of exclamation marks. But you know I like "gay" stuff. :)

If A Song Could Get Me You

2010-02-03T22:58:00.003+08:00

All of a sudden, I feel like I'm being a good friend. Journey home was the best ever. I love you, my dear friends. You guys are the best. ;)

And yes I love hugs.

Don't go there baby

2010-02-02T19:26:00.001+08:00

Oh my god this felt like ages ago. <3

I AM NOT GIRLY

2010-01-30T21:05:00.005+08:00

(Okay so I stole these from Syafaat’s blog, but whatever.)

So today, we had Flag Day! Tiring but you could say it was a lot of fun. Met a lot of people (duh, it’s Tampines, you see everyone you know everywhere) like my cousin Nurul, Syafa’at, Hirzi(as in like, Munah and Hirzi hahaha). Okay that’s all I can remember for now. Went outside Tampines Mall and Century Square asking for donations. “Hi would you like to donate?” was all I said. If I wasn’t talking, I was just there, waiting for people to come to me, standing there, looking pretty (okay ew no). And it was enough! To get my metal tin pretty heavy. Not bad la. Maya is freaking good at this man. Like, 80% of the time she asks, she'll get a donation. Jealous! Okay one part of today I remembered getting hit by Syafa’at’s guitar, while he was about to play something so people would donate more. Haha it’s okay man, I’m used to getting hit THERE(...my crotch). Really.

After that, went to eat with Filzah, Maya, Ayesha, Emily, Riny and Shaikha at Pizza Hut. Food tastes so goooood when you’re so hungry. But I feel so broke right now! Plus I spent $5 on Famous Amos which was so unnecessary, I know. I need 70 more bucks for Paramore!! Ahhhh can’t wait can’t wait.

I have been asking people if I look like a girl. And then they’ll say “Am I supposed to answer that?” or “What kind of question is that?”. I find that really amusing. But what I really meant was if I look girly. And then they’ll say “Hmm… yeah.” I do not find that amusing thank you very much. I seriously think it’s the hair. No? Will someone please tell me long hair does not equal to girly!

Don't know if I'm ready yet

2010-01-26T20:23:00.004+08:00

I really don't know what's with God and dreams. Especially mine...

I swear I dreamt about at least 10 people last night. Last night at 9, and this whole incident explains why I didn't do my homework. But it doesn't really explain why my teachers have been picking on me the whole frickin' day. They've been so unreasonable lately. But Patience is key, ain't it?

Other than that, life's been pretty good. Thanks to several people whom I truly love and care about ;). Love you guys!

(500) Days Of You

2010-01-24T20:46:00.005+08:00

I FOUND ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!

The most exultant yet depressing I've ever felt.

I did not bring a vibratorrrrrrr

2010-01-23T18:20:00.005+08:00

Oh my god hi my blog!!! I’m finally back! (Okay actually I got back yesterday but was really tired and lazy to update you, so I’m sorry)

OBS was really really great, for most of the part at least. I’ve never been so tired in my life. I was so glad I didn’t miss home as much. From belaying to rock-climbing to kayaking to trekking to cooking to pitching tents and a whole lot of other shit. I’m happy that it’s over cos I’m never gonna have to do so much in 5 days anymore but I’m sad because I miss being there! It’s always like that anyway. Did I tell you I love 3E4 so very much! I wished all of us got to be in the same group though, but ‘sokay. We still have time on our side.

Freaking favourite

2010-01-16T20:38:00.002+08:00

Today was CCA Promotion Day! A hell lot of fun but I’m exhausted. We did drills for at least two hours, in uniform okay! (People like our NP uniform because the skirt’s really short and sexy XD) Two hours of drills equals to me losing my voice. AGAIN. I really hope it was worth it. It better be! I brought the camera… but I didn’t even take a photo lor. Haha damn stups I know. But Filzah has some photos of me so yay!

This week’s been much busier than the previous one, which is crazy! So annoying. And then next week is OBS. What the fuck? God, did you like fast forward my life or something…? Training’s been okay but I wished everyone was more committed. We can do it, people! I know we can!

OBS… that reminds me! I haven’t packed! And I haven’t got all the stuff yet either. Damn, tomorrow then. I am irritated with the fact that some people are not going/scared to go for the camp. You won’t die… so just chillax and look forward to it k! Okay maybe I’m just saying this cos I think I’ve been through hell in NP. But yes, it’s gonna be okay and it’s gonna loads of fun!

Wait, oh my god… 5 days without the internet AND phone. Dang… >:(

Embrace me

2010-01-11T21:09:00.003+08:00

Fuck love and fuck life.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

On a side note,
Alyssa Bernal is damn cute.

And I would love more free periods. Please.

I'll be alright, Captain

2010-01-09T20:34:00.004+08:00

Things I’ve learnt and could conclude this week:

1. Sec Three is so much fun but so busy!
2. With Cheryl as my sitting partner, I am so gonna get distracted in class.
3. 3E4’s Environmental Rep is a messy and disorderly person, but at least she sees the need to save the Earth! (I am 3E4’s Environmental Rep thank you very much)
4. If you eat too much pineapple at one go, you’d get really really bad soar throat. And then you’ll get a runny nose and then a fever.
5. When I get sick, I tear up a lot. (I know, that’s like so weak man)
6. People actually care about me. Haha thanks, you guys. Even that made myself feel better.
7. Mr Ahmad is very expressive (and a little bitchy too, it’s entertaining really) and I quite like that fact. He seems like a pretty good Chemistry and NPCC teacher. That’s good news!
8. I raise my eye brow too much. I keep getting “Don’t give me that look.”
9. No one realised I did something to my hair. I trimmed it by the way.
10. My school can be quite cool… but creating a 'TKGS Compass' is SO not cool okay.
11. Ummirah likes the smell of my hair. This is kinda freaky, seeing how she tries to smell it.
12. I can sleep in the bus very gracefully.
13. I miss the holidays.

Schooooooool... And I miss you

2010-01-05T18:14:00.003+08:00

Hi hi hi hi

I like 3E4. I haven’t love 3E4 yet, but at least I like it for now. School has been pretty okay(meaning, I haven’t died yet, teachers haven’t hate me yet, no enemies in class yet, I haven’t got pissed with myself yet). I like my seating arrangement, the people sitting with me are cool and funny and not irritating. Form teachers are alright too! Mrs Tan and Mr Fi and this other newbie Ms Goh. Okay I’m probably only saying this because it’s the second day of school and lessons haven’t started and we had a class party/bonding session today. Haha yeah class party. TKGS is the best!!!

Anyway, tomorrow is Wednesday and yeah that’s when hell starts. I mean, like seriously. Cikgu’s going to kill me(and the whole lot of us) and so is Mr Fi. Homework, you totally suck. But I’m not making myself care too much. I’ll try to finish up whatever I can, but… you know me. Campcraft training also starts tomorrow, so you can pretty much guess how my day’s going to turn out. It’s okay, Syafiqah! Think positive!

I think I’m staying away from the computer for a while. Maybe only on weekends, unless I’ve schoolwork to do. Sec three’s going to take up a lot of my time especially for the next two months. And, I heard something about my brother wanting to put a password on the PC and/or laptop. That sucks, but it’s for my own good anyway.

That said, I think I’m really gonna work hard this year! I’ll try not to play around as much. Need to start being the good girl I was! Hahaha. I’m gonna be a gooooood girl and love being one. Omg I don’t sound like myself anymore…

Oh ya shit, I almost forgot I have 108 bucks to pay back… Goodbye recess. (It's okay, anything to watch Paramore live)

See ya’ll around! :D

Shit happens

2010-01-03T19:14:00.002+08:00

School is in approximately 12 hours and obviously I'm unprepared. I don't think I've told anyone this, but my first days of school since primary school have mostly been very anxious and nerve-wrecking days. I feel like I'm 7 all over again. It's very stupid, I know. But well yeah, it just happens.

Tomorrow I'll most probably make the worst impression I can make. My teachers will hate me for not doing all the holiday homework. Man, please do not suck. Tomorrow please do not suck. I have so much to worry about, but please work out.

Somebody hug me!

2010

2010-01-02T14:08:00.002+08:00

I still keep thinking it's 2009! Annoying.

I'm not gonna write paragraphs about 2009 because it was 2009, now it's 2010. I want to look forward to the future, but yes, the past is what made me. I shall not make any resolutions because firstly, there'll be too many! Secondly I don't want to stress myself out because of a list of things to fulfill. :D

Let's just say '09 had a bit of everything. Happy, sad, angry, bittersweet moments. Everything. I've learnt a lot(we all say that, don't we?) and made mistakes here and there. I'm really thankful for the people I've surround myself with, because if not for them, I wouldn't know how to keep living. So thank you guys so much!

2010 shall be an even better year! May God bless us all!

I'm not boring, I'm just bored

2009-12-28T20:39:00.004+08:00

Hey.

Sorry for not updating. People actually miss me blogging. I never knew! K I'm just kidding.

I've been at my grandma's place these past few days to check up on her, help her with whatever she needs help with. I come to realise it's a very difficult task to take care of the elderly. Wait, I realised that a long time ago but yeah, it just occured to me that I'm afraid of growing old. I wouldn't want to die young either but I really hope I would age blissfully. Happy and healthy. And sane. (Fyi, I'm not complaining about anything.)

I can't believe Ayesha said I was sentimental. I'm sentimental meh... Okay maybe to a certain extent, but I didn't know people would actually say that I am. I'm not sentimental enough to be sentimental. Damn I need to stop thinking too much. AND STOP TALKING TO MYSELF. Oh my god.

On Thursday, before I went over to my granny's I went to school to get new school uniform only to find out that they didn't open that day. Such a Pfffft moment. And then I went to MP Library to study with Hadi. I don't like the librarian at MP. So irritating. I just put my head down on the table... and one of them asked me, "Girl, are you okay? You can't sleep in the library..." or something like that. Urgh, it's not like I'm gonna snore really loudly. Not that stupid okay. But at least I had nice company. (PS: I don't like it when people take my phone away from me without permission!!!)

School's in really soon. I don't know if I should be excited. Wait, of course I am! But homework is so horrible... Mine's only like 20% done. And some of it I didn't even do it myself! Homework is shit. I won't say I won't try doing, but obviously I'm not gonna finish it.

Oh yeah omg I can't believe I almost forgot to mention this! I'M GOING FOR PARAMORE'S CONCERT NEXT YEAR!!! March 7 baby! Ticket's bought, but I haven't paid (Maam) Azrin yet. Hahahaha yeah I'm going with my sister's friend who just so happens to be one of my cadet inspectors. Real awesome huh. I'm so fucking excited laaaaaah!

Ah okay. I need to chill. I just don't need to get extreme with my moods yeah?

If It Kills Me

2009-12-23T13:10:00.002+08:00

Hella good

2009-12-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

So here I am, singing and dancing to one of my favourite bands No Doubt like one of those fan girls. I just hope tomorrow would be a better day. For all of us.

Cos I made it so

2009-12-20T11:22:00.003+08:00

They're too pretty, don't you think?

2009-12-20T11:17:00.000+08:00

"have you ever wondered why something happened. if it was really destiny or just a pure coincidence. have you ever wondered why you met someone. if they were meant to be in your life or if they just fell in. have you ever wondered why people die. if its just them accepting it’s inevitable or just trying too hard to survive. have you ever wondered how something beautiful to you can be ugly to someone else. if they have bad judgement or if its just the lack of. have you ever wondered why people kill others. if they are just hateful or trying to find a way to get rid of their own self-inflictions. have you ever wondered why people fall in love. if they just accepted each other for who they were or really were made for each other."

Two is not always better than one

2009-12-19T23:41:00.001+08:00

I wish I knew what I was doing. These feelings... they're all just lies. They're just cheating me. I wish I knew what you were doing. You're just hard to get. Just like me. But all of this, they don't mean anything.

I want you back

2009-12-17T20:02:00.003+08:00

Training has been like death, but I gotta say, I'm as fit as ever. It's a nice feeling. For now.

That's really what I've been doing the last four days. I want my life back.

I love math i love math i love math i love math

2009-12-13T16:47:00.002+08:00

I was looking forward to that wedding today so I could eat as much I wanted. But no, we didn't because my dad couldn't find the invitation card. Wow that is so amazing. So therefore I am absolutely hungry right now. Too hungry to cook. :(

I miss school. Not just the getting to meet friends part, but also the studying part. Which is weird! But yeah I miss learning new things. I'm sort of glad school's in 3 weeks. I didn't get into my dream class, but that's okay. I'll make do with whatever I got. Hehe I hope I make a better good impression this time. Meaning, I hope I don't get "minah" as a first impression again. But seriously, I was "minah" for first few days of Sec One. Sighs. But I got a "sporty" and "cool" too so that made up for it.

That said, I'm gonna be a good girl and start on math homework.

I MISSED YOU BEST FRIEND, AKA COMPUTER

2009-12-12T22:08:00.001+08:00

I survived. I SURVIVED!!!

Okay. Three days and two nights without internet. This is good start. A great start. Don’t laugh now. It’s ME we’re talking about.

I will post soon. :D

And we look back, thinking we were such fools

2009-12-08T18:57:00.005+08:00

I'm going to my grandma's tonight! So that could mean that there won't be the internet for about five days. :O

I will die.... Okay nevermind let's just hope there is internet there cos I myself am not sure. Urgh I hate packing. To anywhere. Even overseas. It's such a bore, and it pains me that I'm only bringing the things that are in the bag. Freaks me out.

I was bored shitless today so I played FarmVille(Ameera Bajrai is a good FarmVille neighbour) again and this other new game I downloaded from Yahoo called Wedding Dash(some wedding version of Diner Dash). But the one-hour free trial just freaking ended so... yeah it's gone.

Maybe staying away from the computer might help me stay focused(in reality). Some friends have left me here to go somewhere farrrrr away. I just need to prove to myself that I can survive this. :D

Oh can you believe I still don't know what class I'm in. Stupid appeal results. The school's supposed to be calling since last week. But obviously, some people are not doing their jobs well. I guess I will have to call the school myself then.

Told you my life is shit. It is.

I can't believe this was exactly a year ago. I know, I've looked better.
I still <3 this photo though.

Secrets

2009-12-06T18:07:00.004+08:00

Stop these invisible tears, God

2009-12-06T00:23:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I feel like your only best friend is your own heart. Because your heart won't judge you, like how other hearts would. I feel like I want to just tell my best friends all my thoughts and all my feelings, but they won't get it like I do. They won't feel like how I wish they would feel.

Someone (glompp) me please

2009-12-05T21:58:00.005+08:00

Today's a lot of fun. RGS is frickin' huge! It's not fair. And I gotta admit, I can't socialize/make friends with girls(as easy as I can with guys). Which is annoying, cause I'm a freaking a girl. Like, the whole time I was talking to the guys. What the hell is wrong with me! I bet the girls think I'm a flirt. Damn it.

I hate being nervous.

You are what you are meant to be

2009-12-03T20:42:00.001+08:00

Have you wondered what it would be like if you had a different name? Like you weren't born with the name that you have right now? Isn't that weird! Okay that was just a random thing I had because I tried imagining myself living with another name. And how people won't call me Syafiqah, Fiqah, Syaf, Fiqo, Fiq, SyafiqahFiqo and all those names everyone has decided to put my face with. It is kinda weird. I've always thought about this because I think I have one of the most common names in the world(or not, but should be lah). When I was little, I found out my mom wanted to name me 'Sakinah/Sakeenah'. The thought of that just... freaks me out. Because it's just so not me and maybe a little too girly? And when I was little also, I found out my siblings wanted to name me or rather told my mom to name me 'Sabit'. Don't ask me why. I have no idea what it is, or what it means. But it would be cool. NOT.

This post has no purpose. Okay bye.

Awesome Threesome

2009-11-30T20:24:00.011+08:00

First of all,

Lisa Surihani

I do not look like this woman here. Okay Hadi? But I guess it's not such a bad thing after all. If I look like her, it means I'm sort of pretty like her right? Hehehe. If you think she looks like me, tag by tagboard. Hahaha.

Sorry for updating for I have been extremely busy these few days. Thursday was spent(mostly) at Downtown East's McDonalds' with Dee and Nina. After wasting time in a few buses(which did not bring us to our destination) and at ehub, we decided a long chat somewhere would be nice. And we did just that. Three hours, sitting there, just talking and catching up. We all found out I'm an "insensitive bitch" and "afraid of commitment". Hahaha some things you kinda have to agree.

Friday was... what was on Friday? Oh right! Hari Raya. It was actually a very forgetable Hari Raya which is weird cos... yeah you're supposed to remember days like Hari Raya. But I guess it wasn't so bad.

The weekend was marvelous. The whole family(by whole family I mean 6 families of us) had a barbeque and camping trip at East Coast. It was nice for everyone to come and gather and enjoy themselves, and for us cousins because I felt we were suddenly bonded. Honestly I've never really felt very very very close to my cousins before, not that I am very very very close now. But we're definitely closer than we were. (Gay moment)

And today, I had campcraft training! And yes, today was a hundred times more tiring than last Wednesday. I feel like I've been through hell. I ran about 20 rounds around the classroom block and did punishments which I apparently couldn't keep track of. Nevertheless, I feel so proud of myself because I'm still alive. And I made it to the campcraft team! Yeahhhhh omg. Okay now I'm scared. If I die while training(god forbid), TKNP girls better win.

Adela, Me and Marissa with our first "nice/successful" flagpole

:D

So you have to have faith

2009-11-25T20:02:00.002+08:00

I did the Fishtail Braid today! Thanks Xiaxue! You actually kinda rock.

Competition sucks

2009-11-25T19:34:00.005+08:00

Omg omg omg I just had one of the most tiring days of my life. But obviously, there are more to come.

Had first campcraft training today. I was so pumped up and so ready to start train! And yeah it wasn't so bad. It was great actually, finally doing something good for the body and mind and soul(lol). At least I wouldn't rot at home in front of this very screen. Or waste my time cooking something that no one in house(except me) would eat. K no I'm not that bad a cook. But yeah well, you get the point.

With only four hours of sleep last night(couldn't sleep for nutz, sleeping time is screwed yet again), I am absolutely headed for the bed by 10. No wait, I can't! Singapore Idol!!! Damn it. So it's 11 then. Anyway, TABITHA will win!!!

biuzzzneuzzzzz

2009-11-23T18:40:00.001+08:00

I know I've not really been updating(but who cares, it's MY blog. I'll update when I feel like it.), I've just been a little more lazy these past few days. And I am, somewhat, having a flu. And a really irritating pimple that won't seem to burst properly!!!! Can't help but get my hands on it. Urgh.

Anyway, romance novels make me kinda lazy too. It's been at least a year since I've read romance, not that I enjoy them as much I do with thrillers. But yeah they make me wanna stay in bed. That's what I did today until 2pm. And then I watched this show called 'Lightyears" on Channel 5 which was like in 2003 or something. It's quite nice, judging on how bleargh Singapore shows can be. Caroline Cheong(I think that's her name) is cute. Too bad it's only going to show once a week.

I need to get out. Go out, whatever. Staying at home, rotting isn't gonna help me. I'm trying to work out at least once a week. Forget the To-do list I made a few weeks ago. That's just... impossible. As of right now. And I also have a song cover to do. Nyeh.

Ooh and some people owe me money. Money which will add up to about 40 bucks. I GET TO SPEND AGAIN YAYYYYYYY.

Okay i'll update again soon bye.

Rules of Annoyism

2009-11-21T19:13:00.002+08:00

Just because I don't go to some stupid wedding, I think I'm all grown up???

Well, at least I'm not childish enough to think that.

2009-11-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

Omg i feel like such a failure.

Why am I so useless!!!!!!!

Cos sometimes Geography is boring

2009-11-18T19:15:00.004+08:00

These times I need to pray to you...

I can't. (cos I got my blaardy period)

I didn't get into my first choice for sec three. Well, I guess I could appeal. I mean I AM gonna appeal. But if I do, and I don't get through, it feels worse. But there's no harm in trying right? I just don't wanna make the wrong decision twice, you know?

Yesterday was a pretty good day/night(until I found out I didn't get the history core). Actually today has been a great day too! Went out with Mommeh. Shall blog about that soon.

We're no strangers, we're all humans

2009-11-16T19:44:00.007+08:00

I miss him.

And him.

And all of them.

I MISS CAMBODIA.

Why you boys so hot.

2009-11-15T14:47:00.003+08:00

Don't judge.
They made me feel so much better!